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Which would be about 23 weeks to the day! I must definitely be the most impatient person on the planet. Srsly. There’s no denying this. I was not born a patient baby (or maybe…i was two weeks late) nor child nor tween, teen or adult. It’s my major sore spot. I work on this, occasionally. A lot of this impatience is fueled by food issues. Hunger and blow blood sugar make me terribly impatient.This time i am forced to be patient. So far it’s been paying off, 23 weeks out of 40. I’m still barely showing, it makes me wonder, i guess i have a large abdomen since he still seems to have a lot of space to grow. 17 weeks to go and reality will hit home. In the form of a cell turned fetus turned baybay.

I’m sure once baby bear is here it will be a completely different story and all those things i constantly hear from other people. I believe them all and am grateful for their opinions and how it helps me form my own.  THAT BEING SAID however.

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Books to read.

Books essential to read during before or during pregnancy:

Childbirth without Fear: The Principles and Practice of Natural Childbirth by Grantly Dick-Read

Pushed by Jennifer Block

Hypnobirthing the Mongan Method

All of these books state that there is no need for pain during childbirth by using proven methods of relaxation and a stress free environment. It’s a naturally occurring event. Something that is inevitable (the kid can’t stay in there forever). I choose to have a natural drug free childbirth and give my child the best chance possible for life in the world. I may be doing this completely alone but i am not going to let it bother me and be a stronger person for baby bear in the long run.

Pushed.

I will call this the second draft of an earlier post, This more clearly states what i was trying to get across the first time. I would also like to say before hand that this is not an attack on women or their birth preferences or more so our lack of choices. This is just my thought process, how i sort things out and come to a conclusion. My thesis is this. Given the advances in modern medicine and society why is birth regressing into a hospital having total control over a woman’s body?

So, I started reading this book. I was browsing the library trying to find books to read so i could properly educate myself on the finer points of mother hood. As if i would somehow find them in the pages of a book. This book, the one below I found to be severely troubling. It’s a biased book swinging toward home birth and stating that most of the time the medical community is out to get you. Acknowledging that doctors look for ways to scare you into inducing your labor which only leads to a “cascade of interventions” and prolonged labor or c-section. Ranging from failure to progress to inducing to pain medication all leaves women bedridden, the most unnatural way to birth. All this is backed up with very factual information from reliable medical sources.  I wish this was a lie and that doctors don’t push to induce at their convenience and have nurses actively manage your labor but it’s a solid truth. It’s not about me choosing a preference or stating what i want to happen for my birth. I’m talking about whats actually happening everyday in hospitals across the country. I can only arm myself with knowledge and go from there. That’s the plan. A safe natural labor with no medical interventions is still just as safe. I’m aware of the word risk and the fear asociated with it. We cannot plan for things to happen but solely roll with the punches!

From Publishers Weekly

According to writer and editor Block (Our Bodies, Ourselves), “the United States has the most intense and widespread medical management of birth” in the world, and yet “ranks near the bottom among industrialized countries in maternal and infant mortality.” Block shows how, in transforming childbirth into a business, hospitals have turned “procedures and devices developed for the treatment of abnormality” into routine practice, performed for no reason than “speeding up and ordering an unpredictable…process”; for instance, the U.S. cesarean section rate tripled in the 1970s, and has doubled since then. Block looks into a growing contingent of parents-to-be exploring alternatives to the hospital-and the attendant likelihood of medical intervention-by seeking out birthing centers and options for home-birth. Unfortunately, obstacles to these alternatives remain considerable-laws across the U.S. criminalizing or severely restricting the practice of midwifery have led the trained care providers to practice underground in many states-while tort reform has done next to nothing to lower malpractice insurance rates or improve hospital birthing policies. This provocative, highly readable expose raises questions of great consequence for anyone planning to have a baby in U.S., as well as those interested or involved in women’s health care.
Copyright © Reed Business Information, a division of Reed Elsevier Inc. All rights reserved. –This text refers to the Hardcover edition.


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What dreams may come.

the 2010 UppaBaby Vista.If i was walking around Portland with this mean machine I know i would turn some heads. I’d be the best promoter for this company! YEP!

is probably just out of my grasp. I will keep on with my quest. With living feeling monumentally overwhelming and everything just has this swift swirling motion, a malstrom, an amalgamation of stress. Swirling down, if only it was as pretty as this sink. I could totally make one of these. Easily. Besides the faucet. Maybe i should just become rich selling awesome sinks?

128.

Holidays are stressful.

I have been pretty bummed about peoples reactions to my choice to have a natural hypnobabies birth. While i agree that things do not always go as planned, and induced labor is a lot different from a natural labor. An actively managed labor where i’d be forced to stay in bed hooked up to an IV and monitor is not natural. It’s not a comfortable position or natural position to birth in. It’s just more convenient for the doctor.

it’s all just very frustrating. I’m a woman and I should have options. Does it feel that way? no.

120. The extreme liberalist point of view on medicine.

Heard the heart beat again today!

I’ve been freaking out but it sounded like a nice strong perfect heart beat. I think the doctor was more relieved than I was as he sensed that I AM the type to freak the living fuck out, or usually just cry. Mostly it would’ve been crying. He was also really really awesome about answering all my questions about induction and how, it AINT gonna happen.  Yeah sure maybe something MEDICALLY (which if it’s necessary and i know that in some cases it IS and it really does save a childs life than i am 10000% for this HEALTHY babies and moms!!! ((also at the end of pregnancy as was mentioned it can be really hard for a mom to function so an induction makes sense)) might pop up but there is no way fake hormones are going to be introduced into my bod, it’s like a snowballing effect.

Pushing a woman’s body with pitocin and oxytocin cause really strong intense and painful contractions, i can say that i don’t need experience to know this. It’s a fact. It can labor unbearable. Many women ask for some kind of pain medication because of this. All these medicines in your body are more than likely going to cause fetal distress. Because of fear of malpractice and many other things doctors whisk you away into the operating room.  The medical community as a whole does not let your labor progress as it should, our bodies are all on different timers. Don’t rush em. I’ve been reading the book “Pushed” by Jennifer Block it kind of feels like one of those extremists books that is only pro this or against that so i do take a lot of what is said with a grain of salt. but the facts are disturbing, and just like we use facts to justify our means it’s hard to ignore them

Some people want to be induced which seems to be beyond me.(Alright well i kind of understand now, but i’m speaking more towards Moms that do not need to be induced, some do!) Let me get this straight you WANT really strong contractions? You WANT the possibility of fetal distress from the unusually strong contractions that will have you begging for an epidural? Which will most likely land you in a c section because doctors still don’t give your body enough time to do it’s thang?  Yeah i know you will ask where i know this from or how i know it seeing as i have not had a child myself YET, i have however been doing a lot of research and reading studies and birth stories. I don’t want to be one of those women chained to my bed by a fetal monitor that hospitals use more times than not to induce your or give you a c section mainly out of fear and convenience for themselves. “Albert D. Haverkamp, MD an obsterician who spent 4 years researching EFM (electronic fetal monitoring) at a large Denver hospital, testified before a senate subcommittee on Health in 1978 that the machine has become an ubiquitous in the absence of any randomized, controlled studies…Haverkamp also reported that much larger studies showed the EFM had no impact on infant mortality”Page 33

I am not going to be constrained by a 24 hour window of giving birth or i will be induced. Nope no thanks don’t think so. Something else i read that is disturbing, no matter how much we pay out our bums in health care costs we are still shooed out of the hospital and rushed. When you are not being sued for “malpractice” apparently birthing babies can be lucrative…if you set stringent rules and push epidurals. (which is not to say that some women choose this because it makes them comfortable, Please do what is right for yourself)  “In some places, physicians who wait for vaginal birth have actually been told they are a drain on too many resources” Doctors are being told to do c-sections. DISGUSTING.Page 66

Once again i will say that most books like these only demonstrate extreme facts and i will read books on other opinions not just one persons to form a more well rounded opinion. As of now though i want to go rogue and deliver my child out in the amazon in one of those super sweet tree huts. With an amazing view of the sunrise. Don’t ask why, just something that popped into my head.

Block, Jennifer  Pushed Cambridge Mass 2007

Next up on the docket…the other side to this controversy.

***-edit- Everyone is right and i really have noooo idea what i am in for but reading and researching makes me less anxious, i’ve only read this one book so far and plan to read others with less fiery reverence and blog about those too. I love to hear your opinions and stories even if you disagree with me!


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I know this is silly and arbitrary but i was really excited when someone from Bumbleride commented on a post i wrote about them. I probably don’t have enough money to buy their stroller and by some stroke of luck it might happen. Sometimes the gods smile on me. Most of the time it’s frowning. But i will take what i can get.

because angels sing when people use this.

It’s not necessary to keep posting pictures of this i know everyone gets the point. It’s pretty.

This will never happen in my lifetime since i am not popular or cool enough to actually receive and review such a gift. But if i also had a choice to spend exorbinate amounts of money i’d get a Uppababy Vista

UppaBaby Vista

Mostly because of it’s versatility and ability to add another seat. But i dont think i will be having any more children in the near future besides my baby bear and the fabric is not half as cool as the Bumbleride.

As far as bedding goes I like the simple vintage patterns for fabrics and a modern crib. Without breaking the bank. So picking something up from ikea would be the obvious choice but i remember their fabric being less than ideal. BUT spending 100$ on bedding? really? all the baby does it sleep in a bed. They don’t appreciate fine fabrics like we do. Not to mention the blow outs, puke and boogers that the fabric has to…put up with.

ikea crib

Just one idea for now.