Today is one of those days where i feel like the world is going about its business and i am not part of it. Cars driving by on their way to this place and that, people walking with purpose. And here i am wandering around..with nothing to do, I’m tired of this. I like being included in life and having things to do and places to be. Having people come up to me and bring me out of my shell. I look forward to December. I need something to look forward to. Also I’m kind of excited to refinish a medicine chest in my mom’s garage from our old house on Hamilton street. It will make or break my idea for my thesis which would be based loosely on “restoration” which is less restoring actual pieces which i will do but more trying to restore myself and my sense of being and where i belong in the world. I want to restore myself. School starts Monday and i look forward to a break from the monotony. On days where i would rather be here….
Or sleep in awkward uncomfortable places to escape.
But instead. I watch people zoom by as my slow paced life seems endless and the road really long.
I should keep reminding myself that life is an adventure and that not every day can be amazing. That the low days are there to make the really special days worth while.
I usually have a word floating around my head through out the day and i some how aim to incorporate it into the daily conversation at any given time. Todays is diatribe. The word strikes me as weird…it’s meaning not fitting with the actual word it self.
Onwards and upwards.
ALSO i am reading a book…Th!nk, by Micahel LeGault it’s about critical thinking and how we haz none anymore. It’s a response to the book Blink, with compelling evidence that Americans take the easy way out for the same end result. Which i was recently reading about a woman with a piss poor GPA suing her college because they garunteed her a job once she graduated. Can i get a what what? This leads into my segue about another part of the book i found fascinating… He spoke about affirmative action and how it actually hinders african americans because for most they get a free ride to a harder school and do poorly because of it. Interesting. He goes on to say that they should go to lower echelon schools where they will still be challenged but able to succeed aswell. I could go on. I won’t. For now. Oh what am i saying? Theres more. He also speaks about poliitical correctness, which amazed me to see that Americans are all for this. Which can and does hamper free flowing ideas and discussion at the risk of offending anyone, leading back to where he discusses that humans are making decisions based on emotion not facts. Etc. Etc.
I havent drank in the past uh…four days and ITS KILLING ME!!!
I want to walk across the street and buy some PBR tall boys and a bag of chips and stuff my face. I would probably end up putting on Ratatouille while Leo lays on me and stares at my face like he is trying to practice some sort of mind control. It obviously failed.
Ugh, Seriously woman?
Yeah, i did that. He took it like a man and let me put a stuffed mouse on his head, i have no internet now. and a lot of boredom i mean free time.
School starts soon. Thank Goodness.
This is a good lesson in waiting.
Nothin like a little Cattitude!