Today is one of those days where i feel like the world is going about its business and i am not part of it. Cars driving by on their way to this place and that, people walking with purpose. And here i am wandering around..with nothing to do, I’m tired of this. I like being included in life and having things to do and places to be. Having people come up to me and bring me out of my shell. I look forward to December. I need something to look forward to. Also I’m kind of excited to refinish a medicine chest in my mom’s garage from our old house on Hamilton street. It will make or break my idea for my thesis which would be based loosely on “restoration” which is less restoring actual pieces which i will do but more trying to restore myself and my sense of being and where i belong in the world. I want to restore myself. School starts Monday and i look forward to a break from the monotony. On days where i would rather be here….
Or sleep in awkward uncomfortable places to escape.
But instead. I watch people zoom by as my slow paced life seems endless and the road really long.
I should keep reminding myself that life is an adventure and that not every day can be amazing. That the low days are there to make the really special days worth while.